Depression has hit me like a brick

I don't know what to do .

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Thursday, Can we not ...........

So yesterday day was a pretty nice day I don’t really know what much to say about it because it’s to much to explain the whole day ….. I’m pretty sure ill annoy you. Same projects same work new teachings blah blah blah . Any who I went to college possible this thing that I go to after school and made some May Day baskets.  I also got to finish my resume and I started to work on my personal statement which is going pretty great. Another thing I got to do was go eat Panda Express with Hannah after School and I played Zelda Ocarina of time with here. It bro8ughyt me so many childhood memories I almost cried. I then went to senior choir night and listened to all my good friends sing in the choir including Regina. She the best and she’s definitely a favorite but that’s okay because everyone knows what she is. They also showed a senior video and I tried to not cry and it worked but … I was way too sick to tears came out. I couldn’t. I would get even more congested.  Everyone was crying and it all ended …… I came to some realizations ……………………. I’m really going to miss my senior friends. I’m going be alone, it’s what Regina told me and she also told me nobody likes me. Its true ….. Nobody likes me so I can’t even fight her on that one ….. Ugh. Next year is going to be harsh. Besides what I was doing that day my little brother had OFC soccer tryouts for this summer to go play in Texas so that’s very exciting.  I got home later from the concert and fell asleep ……. It was a nice day .

wendsday.... are ok idk

SO yesterday was Wednesday and I don’t know what all happened to be completely honest I went through the day feeling like complete shit because I have a throat infection. I refuse to go to the hospital more than half the time because I hate everything about it . It scares me ANDDDD it’s tacky. Don’t ask, it’s just a thing. Not to much goes on at school, we got handed this research project by ms Apper ad it looks like a hassle but its okay she will work us through it and in my math class we are learning about this histographs that aren’t that hard but math is math and im not good at it. Also, I’m still in pottery working on Hannahs cup and its in the kiln now so hopefully it gets fired so I can clear glaze it ! so it can have a smooth surface and she can drink out of it ! I also right after school went to melissas house one of my good school friends ad we made some pretty sick gifs and took some nice photographs she did my makeup which was very interesting I enjoyed it allot . There o tumblr then me and nmy mom got into a dumb heated argument about me not answearing my phone then I went home ………. I slept right away when I got home.

GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48826271402
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48816049839
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48811753520

Tuesday ...... uggggg

Boring , I want to say that i did allot today but I really just didnt, on tuesday nothing happened i moped around and i have been very sick so i have not really been trying to do anything. I dont like this my throat hurts and flem is taking over my body . I cant stand it i just cant, Oh My God ....... . I literally got home after school then fell asleep after a small tumblr blogging session idk . I havnt been functioing well ...... fuck ... idk .. i dont know what to do .

tumblr : Juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com

A case of the mondays ......

So Yesterday was a pretty average Monday to say nun the less. I came to school grumpy as hell and ended the day grumpy as hell . Classes went about and I looked a drag but I’m still working on that  Zelda cup that I’m making for Hannah . I made a Navi for the inside of it so I’m waiting for it to dry ….. I don’t know. I went to college possible and finished my resume and worked on a poster that we are presenting to people who donate money for the organization. Then I went home and ate dinner ….. as soon as we finished we went to go do laundry at the laundry matt and I got home and fell , right , asleep

Sunday Bum Day

So I was asleep almost all day and i really didnt do anything at All . SO i dont know really what to tell you guys cause ...... my llife isnt even interesting sometimes . I literally woke up when my mom got home around 12:00 and had lunch . Then my mother and my brother went to my brothers soccer game around 1 something ad i just stayed around and was on tumblr and instagram for the longest time . I toyed around with my jewelry stuff but i didt get into it . I wanted to get tea around 4:10 so i decided to go to the gas station . Funny story, I dont know anyway to say this but....... I got mugged . I got punched in the face twice and someone tried to take my money but luckily i didnt have my wallet on me but he did take my cigerettes . Which i didnt mind ..... I would rather it be  that than my wallet ....... He hit , dug in my pocket and just ran . It was just the most uncombfertable thing in the world . I deffinatly consider my self a pasafist and i dont believe in voilence to settle any kind of dispute. So i kind of just let it happen but not cause i did squirm at one point. I at that point decided i didnt want tea anymore cause like, OW , my face hurts. I just retreated back home ad noticed that my moms car was parked but no one was home .... I was gone for nmore than 20 mins and she was gone. Just outtie , she left .... I called her. I called her 12 times and left 2 voicemails and she did not respond or call me . I was very upset i then sent her very angry text messages and we got into a fight . I could care less though like i have a really bad habit of thinking that everything i say is right so you couldnt even fight with me. Im to difficult sometimes , then i couldnt sleep ..... and i stayed up than crashed at 2:00 ......... what am i .