Depression has hit me like a brick

I don't know what to do .

A case of the mondays ......

So Yesterday was a pretty average Monday to say nun the less. I came to school grumpy as hell and ended the day grumpy as hell . Classes went about and I looked a drag but I’m still working on that  Zelda cup that I’m making for Hannah . I made a Navi for the inside of it so I’m waiting for it to dry ….. I don’t know. I went to college possible and finished my resume and worked on a poster that we are presenting to people who donate money for the organization. Then I went home and ate dinner ….. as soon as we finished we went to go do laundry at the laundry matt and I got home and fell , right , asleep

Sunday Bum Day

So I was asleep almost all day and i really didnt do anything at All . SO i dont know really what to tell you guys cause ...... my llife isnt even interesting sometimes . I literally woke up when my mom got home around 12:00 and had lunch . Then my mother and my brother went to my brothers soccer game around 1 something ad i just stayed around and was on tumblr and instagram for the longest time . I toyed around with my jewelry stuff but i didt get into it . I wanted to get tea around 4:10 so i decided to go to the gas station . Funny story, I dont know anyway to say this but....... I got mugged . I got punched in the face twice and someone tried to take my money but luckily i didnt have my wallet on me but he did take my cigerettes . Which i didnt mind ..... I would rather it be  that than my wallet ....... He hit , dug in my pocket and just ran . It was just the most uncombfertable thing in the world . I deffinatly consider my self a pasafist and i dont believe in voilence to settle any kind of dispute. So i kind of just let it happen but not cause i did squirm at one point. I at that point decided i didnt want tea anymore cause like, OW , my face hurts. I just retreated back home ad noticed that my moms car was parked but no one was home .... I was gone for nmore than 20 mins and she was gone. Just outtie , she left .... I called her. I called her 12 times and left 2 voicemails and she did not respond or call me . I was very upset i then sent her very angry text messages and we got into a fight . I could care less though like i have a really bad habit of thinking that everything i say is right so you couldnt even fight with me. Im to difficult sometimes , then i couldnt sleep ..... and i stayed up than crashed at 2:00 ......... what am i .

Day of silence .

So today was a pretty successful day I mean I went to school and nothing went wrong . We did the day of silence and it went pretty well and no one really harassed anyone and everyone pretty much kept silent so I really appreciate all of those people who supported . I started off with my math class live every morning . We have an eight class schedule at my school which I am really happy with, I cant complain .....because I hate block scheduling . Any who ..... I was never good at math so I just tried my best to pay attention . Then I went to my applied design class, I'm in love with it we get to do so many incredible things ! I've made a copper bracelet and a silver ring which both won awards in a regional art competition . we are working on this for of art called batik which is a process so we have to layer allot, and with that layering there is allot of waiting so I also worked on this Zelda themed cup that I am making for one of my good friends Hannah. She's obsessed she knows what she is, which is good. But I always tend to remind her she's Looney and its fine because she always reminds me that I'm a character as well and it all works out . She wasn't there so my talking didn't slip. She had a choir thing that she went to so I was pretty much alone in the pottery room which was very relaxing. Next was art , We have been working on these plaster sculptures which actually look very nice but, its defiantly.... not my favorite media so I didn't enjoy it to much. But the final product is so nice. We stained a small block wood and drilled a hole in our piece then had it epoxied to a metal pole which stuck through out piece. It displayed beautifully in the glass cases we have in out art rooms. After that I..... dreading ,walked to my next class of the day, physical science . We have been watching these pretty interesting videos about how the world was created and volcanos which is nice ..... but I keep sleeping cause its so quite and I don't hear any background noise. which is odd cause there is so many freshman in that class and it tends to be so loud in there but our teacher is pregnant and has been on her mean streak recently so no one wants to test her patience . Other than that we just watched the videos and I went to lunch . Lunch was pretty boring because half of the table was participating in Day of Silence , my friend nick though .....he's a prince. He kept on trying to make conversation and lunch wasn't to bad that day. It was also my nice friend Regina's birthday (Nicks girlfriend) , and she decided to go home . She's also involved with choir duties so she was probably with Hannah most of the morning. Later after lunch I proceeded to my Creative writing class which I mean was pretty nice its a really chill environment more than half of the time in there. and all the writing work ....... will blow , your mind. They are all so unique and individual works. I wrote a very long journal entry today for that class, mainly about heteronormitivity, The Day of Silence and how I think that "gay" in society has become a target word for expressing stupid . How its a form of an acceptable derogatory term. How it doesn't really phase anyone . I mean it does to people like me and a few others .... but when we crack down the codes ...... it seems people don't care. Besides that .... I wrote allot that's all I can say (ha-ha) , Next was history, Or Modern world history, same difference. (you feel me?) We talked about some world war one facts and just finished a worksheet ... it didn't take to long . Then by the time I knew it, it was already time for English. English is one of my favorite classes of the day actually I cant even lie I love all my classes but my English teacher is swaggie. (I was never funny) We are reading the great Gatsby out loud with the whole class and that basically tells you everything I don't know what to tell you. We talked about how nick and Gatsby are these new money foe bros and how there trying to climb up the social ladder as well . It was very good discussion time, then came pottery ...... Hannah is in there so I ... I broke the silence. I had to talk to Hannah (HAHAHA) I was finishing touches on the cup I was making for her and I just enjoy her company to much. That was pretty much it for the school day . I rode the bus home and came to my house with no one here. My mom was out with her boyfriend and they all went to my little brothers soccer game later (My brothers name is Brandon, he's a champ). I didn't care to go cause I was tired so I did have a great nap but Its Friday .... and I wanted to do something and no one wanted to do anything so I kept to my self. until I saw a friend tweet about being downtown so I told him I would meet up with him for coffee . I make it down there at around 11:00 p.m.  and leave around 12:00 a.m. . It was a good hour though, I was with a friend of mine named Dylan, Dylan is a very attractive man I'm not going lie and his company is just the best. He has such great opinions and thoughts . I love that kid, what a royal . It was a 30 min walk down there and back so I made it home around 12:45 p.m. and now I'm here . Sharing my day, to all of you Listening to some good tunes (STRFKR, FIDLAR, Devendra Banhart, WILD FLAG)and enjoying the April wind background noise.



        Want to learn more about The Day of Silence? :

The Day of Silence is the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network's (GLSEN) annual day of action to protest the bullying and harassment of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) students and their supporters. Students take a day-long vow of silence to symbolically represent the silencing of LGBT students and their supporters.
The Day of Silence has been held each year in April since 1996. The 2012 Day of Silence was April 20. The 2010 Day of Silence was held on April 16; in 2011 it was on April 15. The most recent Day of Silence was on April 19, 2013 and the next Day of Silence will be April 18, 2014. Currently, Day of Silence is celebrated on the third Friday of April.

       Want to learn more about how to support LGBT Youth ? :
http://www.glsen.org/cgi-bin/iowa/all/home/index.html

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