Depression has hit me like a brick

I don't know what to do .

Thursday, Can we not ...........

So yesterday day was a pretty nice day I don’t really know what much to say about it because it’s to much to explain the whole day ….. I’m pretty sure ill annoy you. Same projects same work new teachings blah blah blah . Any who I went to college possible this thing that I go to after school and made some May Day baskets.  I also got to finish my resume and I started to work on my personal statement which is going pretty great. Another thing I got to do was go eat Panda Express with Hannah after School and I played Zelda Ocarina of time with here. It bro8ughyt me so many childhood memories I almost cried. I then went to senior choir night and listened to all my good friends sing in the choir including Regina. She the best and she’s definitely a favorite but that’s okay because everyone knows what she is. They also showed a senior video and I tried to not cry and it worked but … I was way too sick to tears came out. I couldn’t. I would get even more congested.  Everyone was crying and it all ended …… I came to some realizations ……………………. I’m really going to miss my senior friends. I’m going be alone, it’s what Regina told me and she also told me nobody likes me. Its true ….. Nobody likes me so I can’t even fight her on that one ….. Ugh. Next year is going to be harsh. Besides what I was doing that day my little brother had OFC soccer tryouts for this summer to go play in Texas so that’s very exciting.  I got home later from the concert and fell asleep ……. It was a nice day .

wendsday.... are ok idk

SO yesterday was Wednesday and I don’t know what all happened to be completely honest I went through the day feeling like complete shit because I have a throat infection. I refuse to go to the hospital more than half the time because I hate everything about it . It scares me ANDDDD it’s tacky. Don’t ask, it’s just a thing. Not to much goes on at school, we got handed this research project by ms Apper ad it looks like a hassle but its okay she will work us through it and in my math class we are learning about this histographs that aren’t that hard but math is math and im not good at it. Also, I’m still in pottery working on Hannahs cup and its in the kiln now so hopefully it gets fired so I can clear glaze it ! so it can have a smooth surface and she can drink out of it ! I also right after school went to melissas house one of my good school friends ad we made some pretty sick gifs and took some nice photographs she did my makeup which was very interesting I enjoyed it allot . There o tumblr then me and nmy mom got into a dumb heated argument about me not answearing my phone then I went home ………. I slept right away when I got home.

GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48826271402
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48816049839
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48811753520

Tuesday ...... uggggg

Boring , I want to say that i did allot today but I really just didnt, on tuesday nothing happened i moped around and i have been very sick so i have not really been trying to do anything. I dont like this my throat hurts and flem is taking over my body . I cant stand it i just cant, Oh My God ....... . I literally got home after school then fell asleep after a small tumblr blogging session idk . I havnt been functioing well ...... fuck ... idk .. i dont know what to do .

tumblr : Juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com

A case of the mondays ......

So Yesterday was a pretty average Monday to say nun the less. I came to school grumpy as hell and ended the day grumpy as hell . Classes went about and I looked a drag but I’m still working on that  Zelda cup that I’m making for Hannah . I made a Navi for the inside of it so I’m waiting for it to dry ….. I don’t know. I went to college possible and finished my resume and worked on a poster that we are presenting to people who donate money for the organization. Then I went home and ate dinner ….. as soon as we finished we went to go do laundry at the laundry matt and I got home and fell , right , asleep

End Day ....

I guess my day has come to an end I'm not sure, I really want to do something else. I went to go visit my friend Sydney at work it was very fun Some really weird people come through her work. She works at a thrift store called goodwill . In the heart of Omaha called the Old market . I helped her straighten some clothes and tried on some things for an Instagram competition. Then I just kind of danced around the store like a true thug . I got Syd some coffee, and me a green tea blender, peach flavored. I saw no surprise from Sydney she said it looked good (ha-ha) . Its a green concoction so everyone kind of looks at it funny. I was there for about 5 hours which sounds like a long time but it flew by quick. we dressed some manikins and swagged them out if I can say so myself. Then came closing time and my mother came to get me ......... I was very sad to leave I was having so much fun but it was close time. Plus she had to go to her friends birthday party and so did some other friends so it looks like another slow music listening night for this fellow.

Currently listening to : The XX
My Instagram: Juaneatsclouds

Funny Story .....

So I have been waking up and going back to sleep while listening to music on my spotify . Its like I want to do something but then again I don't . Maybe I'm just lazy ? yeah ..... I'm lazy . I'm so done , holly cow. My brother woke me up a couple of times because he was in the kitchen which is fine I don't really care, its not that hard to fall back to sleep. My mom called a couple of times and by the time I knew it ................... it was 12:00 and my mom had gotten home from work . Awkward cause I'm just sitting here being lazy. We are both sick so we sat here and talked about some family issues that we have been having and then she made some lunch . We had quesadillas and frijoles, I'm so Mexican I know guys (jokes on me) . Funny thing is though I sent my mom a picture of these beautiful leggings that are high waisted and I'm like mom these are beautiful and she usually never takes my opinion on a piece. She usually is like "yeah" and ignores me most of the time. But today she's like those are mine and we deffo' proceeded on ordering them for her and it made me really happy . My mom usually never makes online purchases so God Bless. Then My mom went to go take a nap . As soon as my mom got home my brother left by the way, he went to a kids day celebration on 24th street, They were having this shin dig..... I'm sure he's having fun. Then my friend Sydney called me up because she's at work all day and she wants me to visit her, I'm still contemplating cause I don't know what I'm going to do after ....... so I started blogging . I'm still blogging .....awk . Actually ..... I think im gunna go visit her, I don't have anything better to do and I need to get out. I have been very lazy recently .

My mom got here cute leggings here : https://swaychic.com/

MY tumblr blogs :
http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/
http://onetimekilled.tumblr.com/

p.s. they are very different . one is just alternative fashion *bottom and the other is more of what I like and catches my eye *toplink