wendsday.... are ok idk

SO yesterday was Wednesday and I don’t know what all happened to be completely honest I went through the day feeling like complete shit because I have a throat infection. I refuse to go to the hospital more than half the time because I hate everything about it . It scares me ANDDDD it’s tacky. Don’t ask, it’s just a thing. Not to much goes on at school, we got handed this research project by ms Apper ad it looks like a hassle but its okay she will work us through it and in my math class we are learning about this histographs that aren’t that hard but math is math and im not good at it. Also, I’m still in pottery working on Hannahs cup and its in the kiln now so hopefully it gets fired so I can clear glaze it ! so it can have a smooth surface and she can drink out of it ! I also right after school went to melissas house one of my good school friends ad we made some pretty sick gifs and took some nice photographs she did my makeup which was very interesting I enjoyed it allot . There o tumblr then me and nmy mom got into a dumb heated argument about me not answearing my phone then I went home ………. I slept right away when I got home.

GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48826271402
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48816049839
GIF : http://juaneatsclouds.tumblr.com/post/48811753520

I wish it was last year again ,

When I still had stupid feelings for the kid who shit on my insides . I’ll never forget that summer, walking around in that small Benson neighborhood . I still have that feeling, I want it to be that time again . When things had less meaning . I want to listen to the music you suggested to me full volume . On the way to my home from your house . Now that you have been gone for so long, and its been forever . All I want to do is see you and have things be the same again. I just want your friendship, I promise that’s all I ask for . Ill be here ….. Ill stay here . You may not, but I never wanted it to be like this . The way it is, you half across town and me over here but needing your attention . Wanting to talk to you so badly and you hardly ever reply . I don’t want it to be like that, and it doesn’t have to be . Please just give me the time of day. I have this feeling about it all still, but I wont say anything . Remember when you would walk me to my car, and you would hug me goodbye . Remember when we used to sit in your bed close to each other for a long time then go outside in the backyard . Share the sunset, talk about ourselves, and our feelings. It was all flirtatious vibe to me but I guess I’m just wrong . I had this feeling inside of me and I   never want it to build inside me again because I just get hurt . I felt that I was  getting far, I felt …. .we were getting far . Back when I was obsessed with the moldy peaches and I hade a distasteful taste for screamo . There Is  a lot of things I would change . I loved you then , and yes I probably always will . I wish it would go away but it probably wont ….. ow well ……… I probably always will