I wish it was last year again ,

When I still had stupid feelings for the kid who shit on my insides . I’ll never forget that summer, walking around in that small Benson neighborhood . I still have that feeling, I want it to be that time again . When things had less meaning . I want to listen to the music you suggested to me full volume . On the way to my home from your house . Now that you have been gone for so long, and its been forever . All I want to do is see you and have things be the same again. I just want your friendship, I promise that’s all I ask for . Ill be here ….. Ill stay here . You may not, but I never wanted it to be like this . The way it is, you half across town and me over here but needing your attention . Wanting to talk to you so badly and you hardly ever reply . I don’t want it to be like that, and it doesn’t have to be . Please just give me the time of day. I have this feeling about it all still, but I wont say anything . Remember when you would walk me to my car, and you would hug me goodbye . Remember when we used to sit in your bed close to each other for a long time then go outside in the backyard . Share the sunset, talk about ourselves, and our feelings. It was all flirtatious vibe to me but I guess I’m just wrong . I had this feeling inside of me and I   never want it to build inside me again because I just get hurt . I felt that I was  getting far, I felt …. .we were getting far . Back when I was obsessed with the moldy peaches and I hade a distasteful taste for screamo . There Is  a lot of things I would change . I loved you then , and yes I probably always will . I wish it would go away but it probably wont ….. ow well ……… I probably always will